Hi Guys, ever since my last post I have been going through a lot of pain. It’s so much taken for granted how one can do the everyday things without giving it the true credit it deserves. I mean walking seems so nice and simple when all you parts are in place.
I can tell you I cannot move now for a long time and I still have a lot more to come. I have started reading books and playing some online games, but mostly I am doing a lot of thinking. I think all these years of hunting made me a more hateful person. even though I have great relationships and a loving family. this must have done something to me.
The ability to disconnect from killing another being is already deformed in itself. I have decided to give up hunting and focus more on trying to preserve natural reserves. I have no idea yet how I am going to do this. but one thing is for sure, this burns in me like no other thing does.
I could be also thankful for this injury to hit me since it gives me a lot of time to think. Thanks to my lovely Girlfriend that checks in on me every day and makes sure I get plenty of good food I am on the road to get much better. A friend gave me a book called the Tibetan book of living and dying.
I started to read the introduction so far and it seems like a very wise book. I will keep on reading about it. funny how I get to think of new things in a way that I never had a chance to do so before… I really have somehow a feeling that all of this is going to be for the best.
I have to go back to rest but I wish you all a wonderful weekend.
Till next time.